Totally confused.
On one hand I want to earn enough money, like to be able to travel around the world and buy stuff. But on the other hand I really want to do what I truly like.
My logic is something like this: if I follow in the conomics area (where I’m heading to) I’ll probably earn more money (yes, yes, I don’t have any problems in admiting I’m a very material girl) than if I was a journalist for a fashion mag, or better yet, a reporter in Asia.
Am I crazy for thinking like this?
I must say I’m both excited and scared for the future. (:
I’m well known for being different (or should I say plain weird) and introspective. I refuse to change, and I believe people around me have understood that and accept it.
I mean, I can have a great chat with someone once in a while, but I like to keep to myself. I’m not anti-social, I just prefer to observe rather than just intrude in others. Is that ok?
I mean my friends, the ones I hang out with the most, are… really talkative. They can talk about what they ate for the dinner for like 20 minutes straight. But I can’t… I don’t see the point.
Ugh. This just turned out to be a crappy post. Sorry. I’m trying to do three things at the same time and I can’t focus.
Just re-watched Twilight for the… 6th time since I got the DVD.
For some weird reason this makes me really insightful and start thinking about stuff… Specially that part when Bella and Edward are driving out of Forks because of James, and then she sees her friends, her very “normal” friends, who are having fun in what probably is just one more Friday night out. I just start to think… If I was Bella, and the choice was to be having fun with your regular friends, or being in love with a vampire and running away from other vampires who want to kill you.
Well, there isn’t much to think about, specially when you consider to be in love with Edward freaking Cullen, and the majority of girls would choose to be with Ed. But at that specific moment – what would you prefer?
I really have a hard time with this. Because I do love the drama and the complications of such relationships, but normal-ness would be nice as well, I guess?! Maybe not. The thing is: you would never imagine B and E just “hanging out”. Their relationship is so deep it almost hurts, it’s so complex… I always dreamt of having such a relationship with someone. Like Renee described it, that Bella moved around Ed like it was gravity pulling her, that he looked at her like he would do anything to protect her. I guess that’s the whole point of the series (wake up Cate!) but is it right for Miss Stephanie Meyer dragging us to believe such love exists? ‘Cause I’ve been waiting for it my whole life, and I don’t think it’ll ever show up.
Sorry for the longer post. I was really feeling the need for the rambling.
So the IIL5 new Tuesday was chosen, and it’s not me. It’s ok though. I really like who they picked
I just… I don’t know. I had never thought to be part of a collaboration channel, I didn’t even know there were such auditions, but now that I do, and that I started imagining what it would be like if I got the place, I really want to.
If you read my blog and would like to be part of a collab channel on YT, twilight or not twilight, please comment. If you want to know more about me: www.youtube.com/user/shiningmer
I know this is a short post, but I really can’t stop thinking about this and I don’t have the time to do better…
I wrote another paragraph of my fanfiction “As If We Were Dreaming” yesterday, however I don’t know when I’ll have a first chapter completed, due to the end of the year, with finals and exams and grades and objectives to be accomplished, it’s really hard to think and get the inspiration to write.
I’m grounded. Really badly,… So all I can give you are Twilight quotes because my parents think I’m doing school work. These are not exactly my ultimate favourites, but definitely top 50
When life offers you a dream so far beyond any of your expectations, it’s not reasonable to grieve when it comes to an end. — Bella Swan, Twilight | Preface
So eager for eternal damnation. — Edward Cullen, New Moon | Chapter 24
Well, I’m so sorry that I can’t be the right kind of monster for you, Bella. I guess I’m just not as great as a bloodsucker, am I? — Jacob Black, New Moon | Chapter 13
Porsches as bribes and king-sized beds in houses where nobody slept — it was beyond irritating. — Bella Swan, Eclipse, Chapter 6
If I had my way, I would spend the majority of my time kissing Edward. — Bella Swan, Eclipse | Chapter 2
I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn’t want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept—as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you! — Edward Cullen, New Moon | Chapter 23
I know you’re frustrated that he’s keeping you locked up like this, but don’t give him too bad a time when he gets back. He loves you more than you know. It terrifies him to be away from you. — Rosalie Hale, Eclipse | Chapter 7
